Most of you know we are expecting our third child (Ava) any day now. My official due date is July 19th. Both Lily Grace and Tripp were a week early, and for some reason I guess it being the third by body started to labor very early this time and we have been playing the waiting game. Knowing that it could be any second- or another 20 days has been so frustrating. The first two weeks of "waiting" I spent running around like a chicken with it's head cut off. Every time i had a middle of the night bathroom run I thought for sure my water would break, with every contraction (painful or not) I would sit down and start timing. We had a false alarm hospital run, and a "bummer" of a doctor appointment this week when there was no change. Needless to say lots of stress. But for what?? I have a perfectly healthy baby inside me, I am healthy my family is excited we are ready. Why on earth would I rush this girl and not let her cook a little longer? Yes, I am crazy!
Lily Grace and I have been doing a devotion every night (super simple for a four year old) but isn't it funny how sometimes God needs to talk to me like I am four?
This is what it said:
"God Will answer your prayers"'
Just like a parent with a child God wants to hear your every care; He promises to answer you When you take it to Him in Prayer."
(it had these verses written below)
"And if you ask for anything in my name, I will do it for you. Then the Father's glory will be shown through the Son. If you ask me for anything in my name, I will do it." John 14:13-14
"Continue to ask, and God will give to you. Continue to search, and you will find. Continue to knock, and the door will be open for you. Yes, everyone who continues asking will receive. He who continues searching will find. And he who continues knocking will have the door opened for him." Mathew 7:7-8
"So I tell you to ask for things in prayer. And if you believe that you have received those things, they will be yours." Mark 11:24
"When you pray, you should go into your room and close the door. Then pray to your Father who cannot be seen. Your father can see what is done in secret, and he will reward you." Mathew 6:6
I have been surrounded by people doing the waiting game lately. Waiting to be healed from cancer, a brain tumor, waiting to hear if a tumor is malignant or benign, If they can have any more children, If in vitro will work this time, if this baby will come soon, if this baby is healthy, is a boy or a girl, if God would just answer this prayer. I really have felt like I was barely hanging on this past week. And these people coupled with a four year old's devotional have opened my eyes to the fact that all I have to do is ask, and I may not get what I want when I want it. But He for sure has an answer for me and all these people that is better than what we could have expected. His timing is perfect and for now all we are asked to do is hang on, hang in there, wait and go about it in a way that pleases him. He will give us the desires of heart one way or another- but always His way. This song I have played a million times and never heard it until of course yesterday as I am pouting about one more thing. God is so good to speak to me when and where and how I need it- watching Lily Grace twirl in the kitchen to it and realizing I have this precious time with she and Tripp before this new bundle comes. I will put the lyrics below for you to read!
Hang on, ask, pray, show Him your desires and they will be given to you!
Hanging On -Britt Nicole
You see my anxious heart
You see what I am feeling
And when I fall apart
You are there to hold me
How great Your love for me
Now I see what You're thinking
You say I'm beautiful
Your voice is my healing
Without You I just can't get by
So I'm
Hanging on to every word You speak
'Cause it's all that I need
Hanging on to every word You say
To light up my way
Even every little whisper I'm
Hanging on as if it were my life
I'm hanging on
And when the darkness falls
I can't see what's before me
Your voice is like the dawn
Always there to guide me
Without You I just can't get by
So I'm
Hanging on to every word You speak
'Cause it's all that I need
Hanging on to every word You say
To light up my way
Even every little whisper I'm
Hanging on as if it were my life
I'm hanging on
You know me better than I know myself
Better than anybody else
Your love is sounding like a ringing bell
Oh, oh, I won't let go
Hanging on to every word You speak
'Cause it's all that I need
Hanging on to every word You say
To light up my way
Even every little whisper I'm
Hanging on as if it were my life
I'm hanging on
